For a small person, I have a scary amount of rage. I had a short temper when I was younger, throwing fits and yelling at everyone. I am so glad my heart has softened while growing up. To this day, I still have a short temper but it more confined, and I rarely show my negative feelings unless you are a close friend or family. I can be mean and rude and I can never NOT be sassy. Not only am I mad at the person who hurt me, but I am mad at myself. Emotional pain is the worst pain. It’s heart wrenching, and it seems like nothing can fix the aching in your chest.
There is so much happening today that I am not aware of. With the election coming up in a couple of months to racial issues being rooted up and tons of shootings, how can you not be bitter? How can you not be angry?
Growing up, I was never a sad girl. I was always smiling and laughing. I was never aware of my emotions and how events can heavily effect my feelings. Now I am more aware of how I feel, and it terrifies me. The thoughts swimming in my head frighten me sometimes. Life is real. It’s not sunshine and flowers anymore when you grow up.
I let the world harden my heart and nurture it into bitterness. I let the world and the people who hurt me steal my joy. My Spirit is willing, but my flesh is so weak. Remember,
“For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed to us.” Romans 8:18
When the world is beating you down and it feels like you cannot bear it any longer, think about how Jesus responded to suffering. He was gentle and graceful.
In Luke 22, we read about Jesus’ pain and agony and how it even caused his sweat to turn into blood. He was praying to God when a great multitude with weapons surrounded him. Now, if I was in that situation I would be fighting and throwing punches. HOW DARE THEY LAY THEIR HANDS ON ME. I did nothing wrong.
Jesus could’ve fought back. He could’ve killed them anyway He wanted to. But no, the almighty One decided to respond with such gentleness and grace. I can’t believe it. After Simon Peter struck a priest with a sword (John 18:10), Jesus healed the man. He healed the man who was part of the plot to kill Him. Jesus gave him grace.
Not once did Jesus start throwing punches. Not once did Jesus strike anyone dead. He may have flipped a table or two in the temple, but He never responded with bitterness. He never let the world harden His heart. Jesus wasn’t nice. He wasn’t kind. He was genuine. His honesty and assertiveness made him powerful. He did not come to destroy. He came to bring life.
Remember, don’t let the world harden your heart. Respond with love, gentleness, and kindness. You were not put on this earth to destroy. You were put on this earth to bring life by seeking those who thirst for the living water (John 4:14) and hunger for the living bread (John 6:51).