Sophomore slump. They say it’s real. It is. I had expectations for this year. I had it all planned out. I planned on being on top of my school work. I prepped myself to meet new people, to not be shy. I told myself that I was going to be a good steward of my money. In reality, I am exhausted of classes. Everything I am learning goes over my head, making me feel like an idiot with a high GPA. I’ve attended social events and still felt awkward and out of place. I’m broke 24/7. Life has been beating me with so much negativity. I’m more unsure of my life than I was when I first began college.
When you are so focused on yourself and your life, jotting down ideas of your new relationship, outlining the next 4 years of your life, you forget about the One who is in control.
The only person we can control in life is ourselves. We can control how we react to certain situations and respond to how people treat us. Sometimes we become a little of a control freak. We have all of the scenarios planned out to only have them come crashing down in piles of emotions, tears, and questions.
I am absolutely terrified. I had my life planned out from high school. I knew who was going to be in my life. I had an idea of what I was going to do with my life and I was going to take off with it, sprinting full speed ahead. I expected to marry the one I loved. Life turned real REAL quick.
In these frightening and anxious moments, I search for comfort and peace in all the wrong places. I totally forget about God. I’m sure He is looking down at me saying,
“SMH (*shaking my head*) child what are you searching for? I’m right in front of You.”
A man’s heart plans his way,
But the Lord directs his steps. (Proverbs16:9)
It takes great faith to be able to notice Him, to acknowledge His presence and power in troublesome times. Faith is greater than our fears.
He is the Prince of Peace.
Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid. (John 14:27)
He is the Great Physician, healing us from sin.
But He was wounded for our transgressions,
He was bruised for our iniquities;
The chastisement for our peace was upon Him,
And by His stripes we are healed. (Isaiah 53:5)
He is the ultimate lover.
For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come,39 nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord. (Romans 8:38-39)
No matter what we are suffering or struggling through, Christ experienced suffering as well. He suffered 10 times worse than what we are going through. His suffering became fatal, but it later became life for us. His life for our life with Him. There is great joy ahead of us. Keep pushing, keep moving. God is near.