The Journey of My Life


I love the journey of my life because of how terrifying uncertainty is, but I also love how riveting the fear of the unknown is.

There’s an adrenaline rush when you don’t know what happens next. Anxiety also strings itself along with this fight-or-flight feeling. You want to know what happens to plan the rest of your life. Once you know one thing, you need to know another. You simply cannot be satisfied with knowledge. You have to learn. You need to know more. You’re always going to be waiting for what happens next. I had a plan for this semester and so far, it’s not going so well. It’s only January. I’ve been waiting for opportunities. One has already made it’s appearance, so I’m waiting to officially hear back from them. I’ve been waiting 3 long months for the next opportunity so I can officially decide on what to do. I need to know what’s going on and what’s going to happen next. If I don’t, I am a complete and utter mess of anxiety and doubt. We either fight to know more by taking control of everything in your life or flee by leaving it in the future and staying in the present. By human nature, we do things that we believe are best for us. This has to happen in order for this to happen. If these little events don’t happen then the plans for the future are completely ruined.

Slow it down.

Being too caught up with yourself, your thoughts, your dreams means you won’t have time to be completely present in the moment. You are too caught up with the later instead of the now. Of course it’s going to make you miserable. There are some things that are out of your control, such as waiting for an acceptance letter or loving someone who doesn’t love you back. You can’t control that your friend doesn’t think she’s beautiful. Only she can. You can’t control your parents fighting. That’s between them. Usually if you try to take matters into your own hands, things turn out the complete opposite of what you wanted it to be. You’ve done everything you can. If you’re living in the future, then you’re missing out on what is right in front of you.

Cheesy quote: Life is about the journey not the destination.

Everything you do effects your future. Duh. Things will work out. If they don’t, then of course the Lord has something better prepared for you. The Lord always provides. Don’t doubt him. Doubting Him is not trusting in His love, power, and plan. He is steadfast no matter what happens to us in the future.

Now may the Lord direct your hearts into the love of God and into the patience of Christ. (II Thessalonians 3:5)

Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, and comes down from the Father of lights, with whom there is no variation or shadow of turning. (James 1:17)


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