Loving Less

Christ

When I love someone, I love hard. I invest so much of myself into someone that I forget about myself, who I am, and my purpose in life. When I love someone, I admire them. I take care of them. They are always on my mind. I shower them with so much love that sometimes I’m not receiving the amount of love I’m giving. I become obsessive and completely invested in this person no matter how they treat me. Love is blind.

In Luke 15, Jesus talks about the costs of discipleship. One verse stuck out to me. In verse 26, He states

If anyone comes to Me and does not hate his father and mother, wife and children, brothers and sisters, yes, and his own life also, he cannot be My disciple.

We cannot love our Lord if we love people. But aren’t we supposed to love our Lord by loving others and showing them Christ’s love? Jesus isn’t saying to hate, loathe, or shun those you are close to. He is saying to love Him more. Love Him most.

It’s hard to love our Lord when we are too invested in someone. We make that person our savior instead. We place them on the highest pedestal to realize too late that we cannot save them and they cannot save us. We end up in heartbreak and on the search to love someone else instead of seeking Christ.

Why can’t we love God the way we love people sometimes? Is it because He isn’t physically present for us to actually communicate through the five love languages?  We can’t invest in God the way we invest in others because it’s a terrifying thought to forsake and renounce all to follow Jesus. There are costs. We pay a price and pick up a heavy cross to follow Christ.

Our preacher asked the question: What did it cost you to follow Christ?

At the young age of 20, everyone is into drinking and partying. Did I just realize this? Sometimes I forget that it’s a thing. Actually before 20, people were really into the social scene. There are times where I thought about doing things just for people to “like” me. I don’t participate in activities that would tempt me to sin because I know that I would regret it later. The guilt would eat me alive. I think about how people don’t like me because I’m boring. Is there actually something wrong with me? We all have different interests and a lifestyle where I damage my body and my mind does not appeal to me.

There are sacrifices we make when we love someone. We sacrifice our time. We risk heartbreak. We make decisions considering our loved ones to please them and make them happy. We eventually give our whole selves to someone who can’t save us. The difference between God and people is that God can save us. There are sacrifices we make when we choose to love God instead of the world. It can be big sacrifice such as being persecuted for believing in the one and only God. People risk their lives to obey God while most of us have it “good”, living in a country where we have the freedom to worship God. Following Christ can be costly, but it will be worth it in the end.

Love God most in your daily walk, but don’t forget to share His love and Word with others, especially those who are lost, confused, hurt, and broken. They need it the most.

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Living Broken

Christ

It’s taken me this long to come to a conclusion that living a life pretending to be something I’m not makes me happy.

The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit, a broken and a contrite heart- These, O God, You will not despise. (Psalm 51:17)

Whenever I’m sad, I turn to this verse for comfort to affirm that I am okay. Where you are in your walk definitely plays into how you see God because every step provides a new point-of-view. Do you only praise God when He blatantly shows you a blessing? Do you curse God when things don’t go your way or when something bad happens to you? Sometimes we are blind to our own blessings.

Late one night, I was up talking to a friend about the Lord and what He is. As Christians we see Him as merciful, full of grace, forgiving, and loving. Others view Him as cruel and arrogant because He allows bad things to happen.

I could’ve prevented so much heartbreak and hurt if I did things differently. The Lord allows our hearts to break. Why does He want something so emotionally and mentally painful and exhausting to happen to us? Why does He want me to be burdened down with a broken heart and affected by guilt? Is this just another way that proves that God is angry and cruel?

It takes us getting hurt and broken to realize that we cannot do things our way. God is like the friend who says, “I’m not going to say that I was right, but come here. I got you.” It’s a humbling experience. He doesn’t want these things to happen, but there’s no other way for us to learn with these thick skulls.

The Lord is near to those who have a broken heart,
And saves such as have a contrite spirit. (Psalm 34:18)

He allows broken hearts so He can draw near to us. I’ve been hurt and broken for so long because He wants me to find Him. I’ve had nights where I literally break down in tears because I don’t understand why my heart feels like it’s been shattered to a million pieces all over again. He’s the only one who can heal me from all of the hurt and brokenness of this world.

God is a gracious God because He allows us free will to do what we want but cautions you before He lets you go. If we view our Lord and Savior as an angry and selfish God because He isn’t verbal or visible when bad things happen, how do we see Him when good things happen? Our view cannot flip flop based on the situation. He wants us to be still and wait sometimes because if there’s a storm brewing and our faith is about to be shaken then our faith can be tossed overboard. If we were still in His presence, our faith would be as still as Jesus sleeping down in the ship in the storm because we have trust and faith in our Lord to be able to pick us back up.

Jesus went through so much heartbreak as well, so He understands what we are going through. He wept when someone died. He had compassion for the sick and the lost. His heart broke when Peter denied Him three times. He suffered and endured the cross for something He wasn’t guilty for. He became flesh to suffer and be tempted just as we are so He can help us. He did it all for us, broken, beated, and bruise, so we can have salvation through Him.

God is always present. Sometimes He wants us to learn by ourselves, to always choose Him when troubles come our way and to always choose Him when we can see our blessings. When you’re having the worst day of your life, just know that it can get better with just one prayer, one verse, and one friend.

For this is God,

Our God forever and ever;

He will be our guide

Even to death.

(Psalm 48:14)

Grateful for those who allow me to break down in front of them. I’m learning everyday from this broken heart of mine.

Lord, Where Are You?

Christ

Working-4.jpg“What’s the Lord doing in your life right now?” I asked a new friend as we sat in the corner of a Starbucks sippin’ on our sweet chai lattes. She looked up at me, scrunching her eyebrows. 

“I’m not sure. I haven’t heard from Him in a while…” she replied.

“Have you asked Him for anything?” I was confused.

“No not really.”

The Lord is always working. I know He is, but why is she saying that He isn’t really doing anything?

“So you must be content with where you are. That’s good!”

When I was sitting there asking my friend about the Lord and His hand in her life, I was thinking of my own life. When she shrugged her shoulders and scrunched her eyebrows, thinking of any way the Lord has spoken to her, I was thinking of ways He’s been speaking to me. She knows that He is present, but her life is at a stand-still. He is working on revealing the wonderful things ahead in her life and she’s just waiting patiently for His word. She knows He has a plan prepared for her. She isn’t stressed about the future but is calm and content in the present moment.

Wow. I wish I had her attitude. I’m the kind of person who needs to know what is happening all the time. I need answers at the exact moment: second, minute, hour, day, date, month, and year. I need all of the details so I can prepare myself for what is ahead.

Just like my friend, I have NO idea what the Lord is doing right now. When you think about it, God is already doing so much for us.

THROWBACK: God sent His only Son to die for our sins. Jesus died for the things He wasn’t responsible for. His death brought us so much love, grace, and mercy from our Lord. It brought us Salvation and hope. He tore down the walls of sin that separated us from God and allowed us to have a hope to be with Him once again. (Ephesians 4:14-18; Colossians 1:21-22)  We have forgiveness through Jesus’ blood (Colossians 1:14, 2:13)

“When you cannot hear God, you will find that He has trusted you in the most intimate way possible with absolute silence, not a silence of despair, but one of pleasure, because He saw that you could withstand an even bigger revelation.” –Oswald Chambers
In times of despair (which seems like a lot for me right now), I question how God’s silence can be a sign of His trust and His love. He trusts that you can withstand anything that comes your way because you trust in Him. You are steadfast and confident in Christ.

In John 11, Jesus knew that Lazarus was sick for two days yet He waited to go see Him. Jesus said that Lazarus’ sickness was to glorify God. Jesus didn’t show up until Lazarus was already dead and in the tomb (John 11:4).  Jesus told his disciples that Lazarus was dead and that He was glad that He wasn’t there. JESUS SAY WHAT?!

Jesus said that Lazarus will live. Martha knew that there was a purpose behind this and knew that Lazarus would eventually be resurrected at the last day.

I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in Me, though he may die, he shall live. (John 11:25)

When Jesus met up with Mary and Martha, Mary blamed Jesus for Lazarus’ death. If Jesus was there, Lazarus wouldn’t have died (John 11:32). At this moment, Jesus had compassion and wept with them.

The Jews said, “See how He loved him!” and “Could not this Man, who opened the eyes of the blind, also have kept this man from dying!” (John 11:36-37) In the end, Jesus brought Lazarus back to life and many believed in Him.

I’m sure Jesus was like, “SMH why can’t you guys just believe in Me.” He made them wait for this miracle to give them time to believe in Him. Sometimes we are blind to the marvelous works of Jesus. Like little children, we don’t understand His teachings. This is an example of how God’s silence is good. It’s a time for us to believe that He will fulfill His purpose and plan. It’s an opportunity for us to see His marvelous works. The Lord provides when we ask, not always immediately but eventually.

In the words of our sweet Jesus,

“Father, I thank You that You have heard Me. And I know that You always hear Me, but because of the people who are standing by I said this, that they may believe that You sent Me.”

You Don’t Need Anyone

Christ

C: He just broke up with you. You’re on your way home and full of all these emotions. What were you feeling at that exact moment?

M: At that moment, I was sad. I thought I was never going to be okay. I thought I was never going to be in love ever again or ever get married. I felt doomed.

C: Now, let’s stop right there! You’re definitely not doomed! You felt all of those things at that moment.  Let’s focus on one thing. You said you were not okay. What are some things you would tell this broken hearted girl to help her feel better? What are some good qualities about her?

M: I would tell myself, “You are okay. You will be okay.” I was independent. I invested all of myself in him and loved him with my whole heart.

C: Right, you are capable of taking care of others and loving others well. That’s a good quality to have. What else would you tell her?

M: I would tell her, “You were a wonderful girlfriend to him, and he doesn’t deserve you. You don’t need a man.”

I think we do need people. We can be too independent sometimes. We can take care of other people well and love people with our whole being, but we often neglect ourselves. Sometimes we seek our validation and worth in other people because we want someone to love us as much as we love them. There’s nothing wrong with wanting someone because we were created to crave companionship with someone forever..

Think of a time where you thought you would never be able to recover from. You didn’t think that you will ever be okay again. In those dark times, your perspective was clouded with negativity and emotions and didn’t even bother to see the light that was there the whole time. All you could focus on was the micro, that exact moment. You couldn’t see the big picture of why things were the way they were. It’s difficult to have a macro perspective when life throws curveballs at you. It takes lots of time for you to heal. During the healing process, the Lord bestows so many magnificent revelations. What did the Lord teach you in the moments of darkness? To seek Him? To trust in His will?

The Lord uses the toughest of times to teach us the greatest of lessons.

At the exact moment of trouble, we over dramatize and over exaggerate things. We think with our feelings instead of thinking of the facts.

Fact: You are good enough.

Fact: You will be okay.

Fact: Things will work out.

There will be more heartbreak from this world in the future. Keep in mind that no matter how much the darkness consumes you, the Lord is always there. He is always fighting for you. He is always cheering you on. He is always longing for you. He is always waiting for you with open arms, ready to love when all you did was neglect Him.

 

 

Filled with His Goodness

Christ, Life

Happy 1 year anniversary to the Filled with His Goodness blog!!!! I have written 52 blog posts in 2016. I did not expect my words to reach many people. I am so grateful that my words make sense. I keep talking about how 2017 is going to be my year, do it’s been a great start to the new year. I can’t help but be so grateful and appreciative of those who encouragement and support my work.

Thinking about it now, I have no idea why I started a blog. I know that it was an outlet for my creativity because I missed photography. Out of all of the academic subjects, I succeeded in Language Arts. I find it ironic that I’m Asian but I love English. I love the way how we can arrange words to form sentences that can bless someone or hurt someone.

My blog name is from the last verse of the old hymn, Blessed Assurance:

Perfect submission, all is at rest,
I in my Savior am happy and blest,
Watching and waiting, looking above,
Filled with His goodness, lost in His love.

This song describes the joys of being a Christian. We are His and He is ours. We have been born again in His Spirit and washed in His blood. We have confidence of being with Him once again as we wait for His return. This song is filled with so much joy and praise that it makes my eyes water and my heart swell every time I sing it.

As Christians, living in the Spirit should be natural, but there’s a constant war with our flesh. We know the things we should not do, but we do them anyway because our spirit is willing, but our flesh is weak. Being filled with His goodness is a result of the walking in the Spirit. Being in His Spirit produces so many beautiful and good things. Goodness is one of the fruits reaped from the Holy Spirit. Walking in the Spirit means giving yourself to Christ, crucifying your flesh and desires. (Galatians 5:24, Ephesians 5:9)

Being filled with His goodness means you know He is good no matter what. You trust in His Word, His promise, and His plan for you. Don’t be filled with His goodness when His blessings and mercies overflow. Be full of it when you see everything but His blessings and love. Things will always work out. (Romans 8:28) His love is everlasting.

Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me

All the days of my life

And I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever. (Psalm 23:6)

I want to live loved. Being filled with His goodness will produce a life lost in His love and all of the good things from above. (James 1:17) It’s going to be a great year for my blog.

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Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy—meditate on these things. (Philippians 4:8)

 

To the Boys I Have Loved

Christ, Love

I loved you. I said it. I showed it. Of course I pictured us getting married and living happily ever after in our cute and cozy little home while we work our dream jobs. I wouldn’t have to wait so long to see you. Waking up to you everyday would be a joy. I could just open my eyes, and you would be there. We talked about marriage and kids and discussed our hopes and our dreams with each other in mind. Happiness lasted a couple of months, maybe a year and a half. Or at least I was happy when I was with you, but something changed. I suddenly became “not enough” or “too much”, or you soon realized that it wasn’t going to work out. Sad.

I have had my fair share of flings and a few serious relationships I can count on one hand. I even “loved” the boys I had huge crushes on (I know, crazy. At one point I wished the worst for you. With a prideful heart, I knew that I deserved better. For days on end I would be angry at every girl you interacted with. I would be livid every time I saw you. Pity parties for one were thrown. A new guy showed interest in me, and I finally moved on from you. Then the new guy decided “Nope, this chick cray.” (Disclaimer: I’m sure he didn’t think I was really crazy, but I know I’m insane.) It’s a never ending cycle.

Fast forward years later to being a 20 year-old woman the size of a 9 year old child. I am lying in bed thinking of all the boys who had my heart. Sorry for being so weird. Honestly, I cringe at the thought of myself trying to flirt with you. Sorry for always playing the “cute card” and making you feel guilty all the time. Also, sorry for never communicating with you on how I felt. I just wanted you to already know how I felt about everything. There’s also one more thing I’m sorry for.

I’m sorry for not loving the Lord enough

when I was with you.

Ladies, you might be wondering why I’m apologizing. You’re probably thinking I have nothing to apologize for. I guess this is a way to accept myself and where I am in my life right. Hey, ex-boyfriend(s) if you’re reading this.

In order to have a successful relationship, you must love each other despite your shortcomings. You must accept each other’s quirks and lame jokes. You must be supportive and encouraging. You also need to be honest. Communication with each other is important. There’s a long list of things involved in a successful relationship, but the key item that definitely must be on the list is loving God.

Dear boy,

I am sorry for not loving the Lord enough when I was with you. I put you on a pedestal instead of glorifying God and praising Him for how you have blessed me. I praised you instead. I rarely showed you what Christ’s love was like. I encouraged you, but I only encouraged you to love me more. I was probably always mad at you (but you also probably deserved it). I didn’t encourage you to love the Lord with all of your heart, soul, and mind. All I did for you was for selfish reasons because I wanted you to love me more. I’m sorry for not being the girl you needed at the time to help you in your spiritual walk with the Lord.

You cannot truly love someone without loving the Lord with all of your being.

So, I hope you find someone who radiates the love of Christ. I pray that this girl will love you with all her heart but also with Christ in mind. I pray that she will be there to encourage you to love Him because He is good even in times of trouble. I hope she supports you and tells you why she is mad at you. May she be beautiful in mind and spirit along with a heart full of Jesus and a little small space for you. May her love encourage you to be a better person. While she is loving you, I will be happy for you.

I am not bashing myself nor am I roasting the boys I have loved. Reflecting on my life, I have realized that I was not the girl you needed. Nor were you the one I needed at the time. So I leave you in my past, praying for the best for you as you continue your life. Paul said that it was better to be single than to be married, but I don’t want to be single. There are still plenty of distractions and plenty of things to worry about, Paul. With all this love in my heart, I will continue to grow in my knowledge of the Truth. I will continue to study and share the Gospel with others. I will proceed to bestow the love of the Lord upon others who need it. I will constantly be making more room for Jesus in my life and maybe leave a little room to love the one I will spend forever with (Don’t worry. You will know that you are greatly loved)

I will fail plenty of times. I will fall all the time in my walk with the Lord. With His grace and forgiveness received from His Son’s blood, I will move forward. Wherever you are, my love, I will be here loving you from afar with the love of the Lord. Hoping for the best for the boys who held my heart. This new year will be different.

Love,

The girl who still cares for your soul

He who does not love does not know God, for God is love. (1 John 4:8)

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“Please Send Him…”

Christ

Lord, please send me someone tall, handsome, and kind.

2016 must be the year of commitments. All of my friends are older and around the age of settling down. Many are about to graduate while others are in long term relationships. I turn 20 in December and absolutely terrified. Well, not exactly terrified. I’m mostly nervous because I am not an angsty teen anymore. I am a woman. I am even more of an adult with even more responsibilities and expectations.

I avoid all things romantic such as songs, movies, and activities, but I’m a huge sap. I want to go see Christmas plays, bake cookies in my PJs, drive to look at lights, and drink liters of hot chocolate and coffee with someone. I want to have an excuse to hold hands and to have an excuse for someone to wrap their arms around me. I want to do all of the cheesy and cliche things I think about that make me gag. I often think about the one I’m supposed to spend my life with. I love writing letters and if I had a boyfriend, I would write him letters all the time and he would feel so loved.

For all you single ladies who want to mingle but don’t know how, let me give you a dating tip. It’s not the only way of scoring a date with the love of your life, but it is definitely beneficial. As cliche as it can be, it’s powerful. It’s simple.

Pray.

Now, you’re probably thinking how ridiculous I am for writing about relationships. Trust me, I’m sick of talking about relationships and having a heart full of love that I cannot share with anyone. Yet. We always hear “God has someone for you” and “God created someone for you. Don’t worry.”  Having this desire is not wrong since God created us to have such a desire. My long last name is translated with the word “patience” in it, and I have zero patience.

Prayer is powerful.

There’s so much I could be doing now. I could be throwing myself into the social scene, but as an introvert that usually creates chaos in my mind.

The most powerful and effective thing you can do for someone is pray for them.

I asked a few of my friends, married, engaged, and single, if they prayed for their husband. Here are a few answers I jotted down.

“My prayers for my future husband were pretty simple yet broad. I prayed that God would show me the right man for me, to make it very clear-cut and obvious to me who he is when I found him. I prayed that we would be happy and that my future husband would be my perfect complement. I wasn’t ever concerned about finding someone, actually, since my education was so important to me. I knew I had a lot of school left, so I never really thought I’d find someone willing to take that entire walk with me. And I just prayed really hard to trust God and to trust His timing of the situation. But God led me right to him. It was a plan that was kicked into high gear when I was in seventh grade and met my best friend, and she started taking me to church. And little did I know my future husband was in Birmingham also meeting his best friend (at the time) and starting to go back to church. As a result, we ended up at the same college. It’s really crazy to think about. But I guess for advice all I can say is to pray for peace, trust, and patience because God has your man lined up, and it’s a pairing that was initiated a long time ago.-Engaged

“I don’t remember many specific prayers before we got married, just asking God to send me a good guy to marry. But over the years my prayers for my husband have become more defined. I have prayed that he would be the spiritual leader our family needed. I prayed that he would reach his full potential as the man God wanted him to be. Today I am thanking God for the loving and compassionate man he has grown to be. What a blessing it is to have someone stay by you and hold your hand  when you’re in pain. And when he hands you a plate of scrambled eggs…your heart just may melt! When first married we think we are so much in love, and we are. But it is nothing compared to the deep love that develops over the years of good times and not such good times. And when God is the welcome guest in that marriage the joy is beyond measure.”-Married

“Father God, give me peace, remind me that You will never leave me. If he is in Your will, send my future husband. But God, I want him to be lost in love with You before he ever falls for me. Prepare him, O Lord, for the good and the bad we will see together. Refine him to look more like Christ. As for me, Father, refine me too. Soften my heart to trust the right man, but harden it to those who don’t want what you want for me. Prepare me to love deeper, to support stronger, and to respect him as I respect Christ. Strengthen us both as we battle separately for purity, but in the future as we battle together. If I never meet him, Lord, You are still sovereign and I am still Yours. Amen” –Single

It’s every girl’s dream to get married, so we pray everyday, hoping God would show us the right one that day. It takes longer than others. Acknowledging that God is still in control when things aren’t going your way is one of the most humbling things you can do. We may not understand what God has in mind for us right now, but we definitely will later. I can’t wait. You have a life ahead of you. Spend a lot of it in prayer.

Tis the season to pray.

 

 

State of Grace

Christ

Grace, grace, God’s grace…

Grace is often defined as something we don’t deserve. It’s one of the many gifts from God that we don’t deserve, yet He showers it upon us. We receive grace everyday. There’s grace when we forget to do something really important. There’s grace when we have wronged someone. Ultimately, there’s grace when we have sinned against the Lord.

He gives us grace upon grace. We are said to be made in God’s image, meaning we have characteristics that reflect Him such as His love, beauty, and more. If God gives us grace, we should bestow grace to others. People have wronged us, disappointed us, upset us and it’s hard to move past that. It’s difficult to be able to move on and be okay.We should give grace just like we are forgiving others. There has been times in my life where I hate another person for what they have, or what I once had. It’s rough. I don’t want to feel this way towards another person, especially if they’re within the household of God. That isn’t right. It’s not unity. Having a hard heart towards others allows you to harvest that bitterness your soul doesn’t need. A hard heart brings more hurt than you can handle.

That girl you hate for no reason? The boy who broke your heart? Take a step back and breathe. Give them grace. You may not what they have done, but showing them grace means that you care for their soul. Give them something they don’t deserve the way God gives us His grace to be free from the bondage of sin. We need grace in order to survive this cruel world. Being full of grace doesn’t mean you are soft. Overflowing with grace means that your strength comes from the Lord and His love. To know His love is to know His grace and what it has done for our hearts. Grace is humbling. Giving grace brings us peace. Peace gives us joy. Being full of grace is a never ending product of goodness.

Pursue peace with all people, and holiness, without which no one will see the Lord: looking carefully lest anyone fall short of the grace of God; lest any root of bitterness springing up cause trouble, and by this many become defiled; (Hebrews 12:14-15)

Live in a state of grace. Life is too short to be living bitter and hurt. Now don’t give out grace like Oprah Winfrey wanted to give out cars. It’s not instantaneous. It is a process that involves a lot of soul searching. I’ve bestowed grace upon a season of my life, allowing peace to flood my mind and soul. There’s someone I used to love with all my heart in a romantic way and in a platonic way. The romance ended and the friendship is rekindling because of the grace I have given not only to him but to myself as well. Grace brings peace and joy and all things good for a lifetime.

No Mistakes

Christ, Self-Love

I’m not going to tell you that you’re beautiful because you won’t believe it. No matter what compliment you receive, you don’t believe it. You put on your best smile and awkwardly laugh, feeling obligated to compliment them back. You feel awkward, so you flee. It’s funny how we can genuinely encourage and compliment others but we can’t do the same to ourselves. You may think it’s silly to reassure yourself that you are beautiful or that and, you are enough, but trust me, living in a world where you are constantly being torn apart both emotionally and mentally, you need some sort of reassurance.

We always look towards Psalm 139:13-14 for reassurance. It is a simple verse with complexity. There’s more to it than what appears printed on the page. Let’s read it.

“For You formed my inward parts. You covered me in my mother’s womb. I will praise You for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Marvelous are Your works, and that my soul knows very well.”

God formed our “inward parts” or our “inmost being.”  He formed our souls. Throughout the Bible, we see that God values the heart more than the body. We see that when David was chosen to be king. in 1 Samuel 16. God doesn’t view us the way we view each other, that is with a critical eye. God looks at the heart. The body is fleeting, however the soul is everlasting. God molded us into a beautiful and marvelous piece of art. He started from the inside, the most precious and wonderful part of us, to the outside.

We praise God for the beautiful sunsets and landscapes, but we never praise God for our beauty. Thinking about it, it is funny telling God, “Thank you are making me so beautiful!” I’m not saying we should do that, but we should at least acknowledge His marvelous work. We happen to miss that detail. Telling ourselves that we are a mistake, that we are not beautiful or not enough is an insult of God and His work. God created the world and it was good. God created us and it was good, but we don’t believe it. Being fearfully made means that we are made with the utmost respect, honor, genuineness. Being wonderfully made makes us exquisite or set apart.

Our soul knows His works very well, but we forget the piece that is most valuable to Him. If you know how amazing, wonderful, and marvelous His works are, then you should know how lovely and magnificent you are. God doesn’t make mistakes. Don’t mistaken yourself as someone who is unworthy, unattractive, or unloveable. From the tips of your toes to the hairs on your head, God made you with fear and with beauty. You aren’t a flaw in God’s work. You are a blessing.

Willing but Weak

Christ, Uncategorized

Lately I’ve been envious of other girls. Not just any girl, but the ones who are more noticeable, the ones people always take a look at first. I don’t understand how they have that effect. I don’t understand how they can just walk into the room and all of a sudden, boys are pining for their attention. Her manners are charming, always sitting up straight with her head held high. She has a pleasant laugh with a witty tongue, always ready for a teasing and playful remark. She manages to be modest, proving that you can still capture someone’s attention with clothes on. How are these young women so memorable and captivating?

I don’t want to envious or jealous because I know that I’m beautiful just like they are. There are things in life that we don’t want, but we still manage to somehow grab a hold of these things. I don’t want to be tempted into sin. I don’t even want to have the thought of doing something evil in my mind. We don’t want to sin, yet we do. It’s in our nature. Paul states in Romans that he wants to do good, but he doesn’t. He wants to practice good, but he doesn’t. He ends up doing evil instead. (Romans 8:19)

The Spirit is willing but the flesh is weak.

We fall short of who we need to be and what we need to do for God. We convince ourselves that because we have been redeemed by the blood of Christ that grace will cover our sins because God is merciful and loving. Grace doesn’t cover our sins if we aren’t willing to obey God and His commands, yet He is still loving and merciful. This undeserving gift does not save us if we don’t love and serve Him.

Therefore, we must fight our temptations, as if it’s our life. You don’t see what effect sin has on your mind and your soul (Romans 6:23). Fight for your soul because Satan is ready to snatch it at your weakest point.We aren’t alone in this fight either. There are others who are struggling with the same temptations, striving to resist. Not only are there others bearing your burden, but God is fighting for you as well.

God is always fighting for you. Quit being stubborn and let Him. We can’t do it all by ourselves. Our strength comes from the Lord (Exodus 14:14) Just a reminder that He is still good when we aren’t.